:: Mon arbre ::

:: Monday, January 14, 2008 ::

How can a life chance that much is so little a time?

:: 1:34 PM (1) comments ::

My boyfriend finaly gave is demission - yay! They really were abusing. For the first time in I-don't-know-how-many months, he felt creative and was joking and smiling. It took him so long to abandon that place...

Last week, I had bad dream for long, quite a few half-white nights. Seems to be better this week. I'm trying to go to bet later at night, which isn't easy for me. Otherwise, I keep waking up earlier and earlier. I was up at 5h30 this morning. Still 30 min too early. Better than an hour and a half too early. Rearranging you sleeping timing is rather unpleasant.

I didn't work enough magic, didn't pull enough mana last week. Makes me feel tired too fast, and makes my days seem incredibly long at the job and almost inexistent at home.

We missed the dance class last night. We went to trois-rivières for my job and came back too late.

:: 3:39 PM (0) comments ::

i finished early again, mostly for a lack of something to do, so I went home and did a few hours of crafting. I'm going to montreal tonight.

I almost finished my light staff. I took a long piece of gray floated wood I found while working outdoors, I drew motives with a woodburner and melted shapes of tin on it. On the top, two rings of tin melted there hold pieces of large plated copper wire : they are shaped so that I will suspend a stained glass lantern on chains there. Today, I finished the polishing of the tin: liming first and then polishing and washing. I did about half of the necessary varnishing, I'm currently waiting fot it to dry.

The last part will be enchanting it... and using it. I drew no runes ont the wood : all of it is curves and shades of grey. I didn't want to break the feeling. Magic should flow well inside that. I want to facilitate seeing in the dark when I play in the woods. Ya, I actually made that for a game... but I is nice and will surely live.

I burned myself, but that something that happens once in a while. Tin can get hot. Now I suppose I should take care of that burned arm and my black and green hands.

I need a camera.
I'll take that thing and a few other crafted objects (jewlery-bottles, jewlery of feathers, stained glass...) to a game where I expect to find over 100 players. I pretty sure I can manage a few contracts.

My blowing horn is getting nicer and more finished, but it isn't ready yet. I'll have to test on a cut bit if I can melt metal on that. My drum has been waiting a long time. I feel the inspiration for it rising again: I'm due to work on it soon. I'll have to try making a belt with that melted tin technique...

:: 4:09 PM (1) comments ::

I really write once in a while now... oh, well...

Life has cycles, magic has cycles... I think I just closed one. Feeling the power flowing fully again at the slightliest tought of it. Strong, free, powerful, wild. I feel a soft but constant call to magic, wear my crown often again, as well as a fully flowered third eye. Power and freedom. Not the tamed magic of the circle, the regular flow of the coven. My own magic, one fit for a dryad.

I the last few days, I started making, crafting and writing again. I first expected to write for the website, but I'm seriously considering a book. A book, in french, but not wicca 101 at all. I have to arrange the links on my website.

I want to continue my work on the futhark, and there's a class I'm supposed to teach to a friend that is just waiting too long. It's the way I like to teach: one or two students, specific subjects, and lots of experiencing. The subject I was asked will probably take me four or five classes to get done. Attack, defense, shielding and exorcism, basics and practice. I'll probably add how to send toughts to creatures in that. Could be useful. Last time, it was herb magic, basics too. Only the how to make incense and such stuff. The more delicate workings, including the ones with spirits of plants, will have to wait for another time, there's some stuff to be learned yet.

It's surpriseing how many of my friends are currently in trouble, mostly monetary. Quite a few thousands in total, way past the 10 thousand. At least I'm sure two of them aren't going any deeper, slowly but surely getting out of that circle. Doesn't look easy at all, even less when one comes and you start giving food...

:: 12:23 PM (0) comments ::

Fait un ti bout que j'ai rien écrit... Les païens de Québec commencent à se repointer le bout du nez, je suppose que je devrais chatouiller un peu.

Je suis stressée à l'idée de leader le rituel le 22, mais je vais m'y faire. Je sais plutôt bien mes textes, mais j'ai l'impression qu'ils me sortent de la tête dès que je pense que c'est moi qui prends le rôle de la HPs... :s Étude en perspective, et pratique.

C'est ma fête bientôt, va faire ça à Montréal. Ça me donnera l'occasion de voir des vieux amis.

Côté magie, pas grand chose de neuf, plutôt une pratique quasi-journalière... a tiens, si: j'ai eu ma couronne de feu ya pas longtemps, et je peux à nouveau aller la chercher. Un seul cercle sur les trois, mais le reste va sans doute venir sous peu.

L'effet que me fait cette couronne... c'est comparable à un orgasme!

Ça fait un bout que je veux tenter des techniques dans le shadow walking... et je repousse toujours... je suis due pour ca, pourtant.

:: 9:21 AM (0) comments ::

Un peu de ménage, copie de feuilles pour mon grimoire, retour au ménage...

mon grimoire avance: tous mes anciens textes dans des cahiers sont recopiés. Me reste mes recettes et le ménage de ce qui se garde dans la fantastique quantité de feuilles volantes que j'ai... Ya des choses que je met quand même seulement en référence à la fin! Entre autres des textes de sites web comme le stuff que j'ai sur le shadowalking.

:: 5:38 PM (0) comments ::